would you like an immune system destruction with that?

I have an appointment this afternoon at the hospital. I'm not looking forward to it in the slightest. I have a lot of respect for the doctors and for what they do but I don't think they have looked into my case satisfactorily. Ever since that last scan where they said 'It looks like it's back - let's destroy your immune system' I have been very worried. I have been happy, and have had a lot of fun but that constant pressure and stress has not been good for me. I think that the shingles was partly a build up of stress. Sometimes I wish I could just leave my body, and all the pressures placed upon it and me, for a while. I'm going today for a blood test. I know that they will try and persuade me to have chemo and that is the part I just can't be bothered with. I place far more trust in my radionic doctor and my chinese doctor. We shall see...