Reiki me.

I am slowly getting over this shingles. I still get tired a lot, have random pains and enjoy a good scratching session daily but it's getting there.

Last night and tonight I am doing a Reiki course, this will give me Reiki I and allow me to heal myself as well as friends and family. The main reason that I've done is that throughout this cancer experience I have become a much more spiritual person. I feel that Reiki is a good was of begining in a 'healing' field allowing me to develop my own way of channeling positive energy.

The other reason I have done is because I need to get out of this terrible habit I have got myself into. A downward spiral of fear whenever I feel anything remotely out of the ordinary on my body. I get myself into extremely paranoid upset states and I become totally illogical, convinced that the cancer is back. It is a terrible situation to be in and I refuse to let my life be governed by fear. It is not pleasant for me and it's not pleasant for those around me. Having learned Reiki, when I find anything unusual, instead of constantly poking at the area, inflamming it, and creating negative thought patterns which over time can and will become real, I can heal myself, calm myself and channel positive energy to the area. Over time I will be able to get out of this negativity and lead a normal life, without the fear of cancer creeping up on me.

That's the theory anyway, and with the ammount I've read about quantum physics, mechanics, spirituality, eastern medicine, western medicine, and dealing with a life threatening disease, I think it makes a whole lot of sense.