Re: mission

Yesterday I had the results of my CT scan and it was good, I quote,

"The chemotherapy couldn't have gone any better".

There were no signs of tumours anywhere. So what does this mean? Well, they still want to go ahead with stem cell therapy to make sure that any remaing cells, too small to be picked up by CT, are killed off. The statistics show that this then gives you a 50/50 chance of not developing cancer again. Along with associated future problems of the BEAM chemo that they give you just before returning the stem cells to you. These include heart, lung, bone, liver, kidney etc. problems. None of these are life threatening problems and there is only a small risk of developing them, but the risk is there.

So, not really sure what to do with this one. I am now leaning toward not having the SCT. But that doesn't mean I will get back to normal life, no. If I don't have it I will be spending that month doing a combination of Gerson therapy, homeopathic, and spiritual 'medicine' to kill off any remaining cancer cells. Giving my body a complete clear out by eating highly nutritional foods and continuing to develop myself spiritually to be a more balanced person. I can hardly believe I'm being so frank about it here since many people will be thinking I'm stupid for taking the risk...again. However, I have been and am going on a life changing journey that, unless you've been through this, you couldn't understand. And even people that have gone through something like this maybe would not understand since the journey is different for everyone. Cancer changes you. I believe it has taught me some very serious lessons and taken me on a new direction in life. I am not the same person I was and in a way I am pleased that this has happened. No, I'm not happy with all the injections, treatments, pain, and mental anguish; but I am happy with who I've become because of it.

I have a lot of thinking to do this weekend. I'm glad the sun is shining.