the fat lady is yet to sing

Sorry for the lack of posts recently. Time has flown by and it's always on my 'to do' list which never ends. The top of my 'to do' list, which I never seem to be able to cross off is 'go to hospital'. I am spending loads of time there. Blood test after blood test, bag of platelets, bag of blood, clinic. When I came out of hospital I thought "haha, the end!". Little did I realise that the recovery time they specified would apply to me. I've always defied their rules and been great straight after chemo, but this time I'm a wreck. I've also managed to pick up some kind of chest infection. More antibiotics, which play havoc with my bowels. Some mornings I wake up feeling on top of the world, then I walk up to the shops, or something equally un-eventfull, and by the time I get back I'm in need of a nap. None of this is abnormal but I always think of myself as different, and 'it won't happen to me'. Again, I just have to be patient.