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After seeing the doctor regarding my incredibly low white blood cell count of 0.4 (normal is 4.2-5.4), and that being the reason why I feel so lethergic, it was decided to go ahead with the Vinblastine injection since my kidneys have responded so well to the treatment. Their level is now at 165! (originally 500, and normal is 100 ish). Usually they don't give chemo unless you have a WBC of 1 or more. What this means is that I feel really shitty. REALLY shitty. The news of the kidneys gave me a real moral boost though.

I am under house arrest, I can't have visitors since I'm so open to infection. This count should start to go up again slowly but surely and make me feel a whole lot better. There are injections I can give myself too, called GCSF, and I'm not entirely sure why I wasn't given any as these. They cause your bone marrow to start kicking out WBC's at an alarming rate, if a rather painful one. Possibly I will get these at Thursday's clinic - along with more painkillers.

In the mean time I got my morphine, and to be honest I expected more. I still have pain and feel unwell after taking it, it's just that I don't have the energy or incliniation to do anything about it. I just lie there in a daze finding it difficult to open my eyes wondering if movement will ever return to me. It has given me a chance to catch up on some sleep.