and they will come out through your skin...

I seem to be having similar skin issues as when I first had chemo therapy, even though it is now a good 2 months since my last fill-up. It was said that the drugs take up to a year to get out of your system so I guess mine are coming out and causing a few unwanted side effects. I've had plenty of spots, mouth ulcers, random achy pains, and other type lumps.

I know that they are not cancer symptoms, but it is still very difficult to get those cancer thoughts out of your head. After the last cancer, about 4 years ago, it took a good 6 months before I left behind my incredible sickening paranoia at any slight bump under the skin. The worry made me sick in itself. I am determined not to let that happen this time but it is still a scary, yet happy, time.

I saw monkeys

What an excellent month this has been. First of all I refused medical intervention and as a reward I went to Malaga for 2 weeks on my own. This was highly enjoyable. I took off my watch, ate when I wanted, slept when I wanted, did anything I wanted. It was great. Met some cool people, too...

Then I came home for four days to glorious CO2 induced British summer, then once again to Spain. This time with my girlfriend, Imelda, and good friends Ali and Gareth. A day in Valencia, a night in Barcelona, and 5 days of pool lounging and sea swimming.

Today I had a checkup at the hospital and it all went great. No problems here.

It is really hard to get out of the routine of being ill. Without a never ending schedule of blood tests, chemo-therapy, scan here, scan there, it's difficult to know what is happening. Now that it is happening I am going to do my best to start all the things I promised myself I would do once it was all over with. Mostly this is doing what I want to do, not what others want me to do. I will also be having a lot of fun.